I never usually get the feeling that I am so far behind but I feel that today. pig stockperson jobs and not saying things correctly to their corporate lingo so you do not get employment. I feel so violently ill, like humans are not created and evolved for this world that we have made. we have took an oasis and turned it into a living-writhing cesspit of lies and pollution. nobody speaks the truth anymore, everything seems to come through layers of filters. these people have nothing, the job pool is a shithole and working is just as bad. I need medication to survive and I have several diagnoses that make me very undesirable to employers. I hate that everyone takes advantage of one another and everyone always wants something from you. they think they deserve something from you. ideally I would kill the corporate mindset and stop the rat race. because you don’t have to fucking run. you don’t. I feel like I’m screaming from inside a glass tank. we are all going to die and you are wasting your life. I feel like hot tar is dripping from the cavity in my chest.