you can seem to have an ecstatic view on life while you’re at home, music feeds into your soul and the sun gazes through your window, you feel like the rays have filled the gaps in your soul with their expanding warmth.
you exit your house and see all the dread and despair and can’t help but feel unsettled and perturbed. it is hard to focus on positives when the system fails so many that you are consistently face to face with those souls. damned and dreaming.