the candle has burnt out

I am focused on being unsatisfied, currently. everything seems to be so stale and unsatisfactory in the sense that it feels like sand slipping through all of our fingers. I hate wasting my time on the short term. I want long term and I want it later. I think that would cure my ails relating to my life. but then I can reframe it, I know every single action is a step toward my long term goals. I need to focus on how I want to get there with the enjoyment of the journey tiding me along. I am waiting for next week, I have a couple of important things going on that can be somewhat make or break for how I have envisioned my future. the present seems so much like fertile soil, I have sown my seeds and I am waiting and staring at the ground. I bide my time with writing and creating but if I can just be patient and wait for next week (as I am) everything will be fine. life is a great opportunity for everything to exist that I need.